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Stuck in an exhibit

 What does it feel like as your life you once had but as far back as you recall exists only as memories now becoming harder and harder to recall with any real clarity, th fog clouding my mind from a lifetime of heavy narcotics use has almost dulled so many of the finest details that made them so meaningful to begin with? I feel like I'm am exhibit piece living my life for the entertainment of those sick bastards in this city I regretfully am stuck in. The harder I try to escape the confine of my glass enclosure, the more it becomes obvious there is irrefutable proof someone or some group is absolutely manipulating my life for their own agenda. 

Looking for the UpSide of Down

 When you wakeup at the bottom, having fallen all the way down, will you choose to pick yourself up when there's no longer anyone watching? I am writing this at what I hope to be the 9th and final year of me being homeless and addicted to what used to be heroin, then recently turned into fentanyl; as I have less than 48 hours until I attempt treatment which I have arranged entirely upon my own volition, not one bit of my desire to be going stems from anyone or anything else.